Secret Journal

After reading this passage, I thought suicide was just a pathetic excuse used to escape the real world. When the author learned that one could end his own life by committing suicide, he went to the kitchen and tried to poke himself a few times until he realized he could not bare the pain. In this diary it stated that he stopped stabbing himself once he realized the knife was against him, but to me, that just seemed like an excuse as well. He could not accept the fact that he himself could not take his own life. That in fact, rather than aging, or dying of disease, that commitiing suicide was a much scarier thought. The author of this narration states that he thought of suicide several times as he grew up, but everytime he just wasnt ready. After reading this I realized that if one has the power and strength to take their own life, there isn't anyone or anythign that could stop them from overcoming their greatest fears. I thought to myself, why does one decide to commit suicide? What could possibly be more painful and scary than putting an end to your own life? And my answer was nothing. People who actually commit suicide must be strong willed and extremely determined. If they were to put that determination into making their lives more successful and happier, I believe they could easily turn their lives around. Although the author of this diary thought about suicide and claims he was not afraid of death, but rather of aging, he seems to never be ready for it. In my opinion, the author thinks of suicide like a habit, but never will he actually be able to take his own life.